Matahariku.

agak-agak ah sikit.

2011-04-28T23:52:00.000+08:00

Ah-ha. so my last post, i told you about me continuing my studies.it didn't happen.well, everything happen last minute. i was told to sign up one week before the school starts.To cut short the story, shit happens if it's a last minute thing.One day before the course starts, I'm still having problem with the fees.So I decided not to continue.There you go.The little hope I put in, was destroyed in just seconds.

Worry not, I'm fine with it. Every cloud has a silver lining. I'm even busier right now. With the PTC coming up at the end of May, the teachers have to set up portfolio.As for me, I have 2 PTC - Kindergarten & Madanis. How crazy can that be? zzz!

On the other note, I've been a punchbag for some people lately.Tak tahu sama ada I'm too nice or it's just them who have nothing better to do than carik pasal. Rasa-rasanya macam nak sepak kan aje orang-orang gini tapi kerana sayang dan respect, tangan tak jalan.Bukan tak pernah sepak orang.Pernah.I just don't understand why me.Seriously,I'm so freaking tired with people venting their anger on me. Abeh bila aku marah, ada tak orang kisah? Aku kena marah balik lagik ada lah sebab perangai. Fair ke gitu?

Agak-agak ah sikit. I've been keeping quiet because I'm trying to understand the whole "Aku tengah bad mood" thing. But it's just not fair.Not freaking fair.

Aku kena jaga hati orang abeh hati aku?Ada kisah?

i am still alive. (:

2011-04-18T00:19:00.000+08:00

Let's start the abundant blog with a Salam,shall we? Assalamuaikum w.r.b (:

Right.I've been neglecting the blog for over a month already.Simply because I'm busy - freaking busy to the max. Work has taken 70% of my life. Not complaining as yet. I'm still surviving which thank God.However, things have been very different since I started work. Everyone knows, I hardly spend time with the outside world.I hardly spend time with my girlfriends and friends.I have no idea how would it be if I have a boyfriend at this point of time.He would have dump me for spending too much time at work.

Besides the hectic work, school sets in this week.I'm gonna study again after 1 year plus.I'm taking Diploma in Early Childhood at Temasek Polytechnic which I'm not sure I'm ready for it.But knowing me, everything goes.Yes, it's gonna be part time and it's gonna be 3 years. I am crazy if that's what you gonna say.Hectic work and it's gonna be a hectic me at the end of every Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday.

Agak-agak bila masanya aku nak pegi dating?takda maknanya nak pergi pikir cos I don't have the time yet.But definitely, I am still working on the time management.People around me getting engaged,married and even got together after a few months knowing each other. abeh aku?I have people wanting to matchmake me with their husband's colleague and such.Sampai kena matchmake kau.sigh.

But bottomline, even if I have someone, I still need to work on my savings.Never that easy to save if you have so many things to pay with a little amount of salary.My target to get married at the age of 24 seems to be unattainable.So let's bring it to the age of 26 or 27 hokay?

Despite all this, do know that I'm leading a happy life with the people around me.Thank you,Allah.Thank you, You. (:

i aint a machine.

2011-03-03T22:44:00.000+08:00

incase you forgot,
i'm not a machine that you can vent your anger at anytime you want.
count yourself lucky im still being nice to you for the past 1 week.

just one more person to test my patience.
just one more.

life is too busy.

2011-02-26T19:53:00.000+08:00

It's almost the end of February.Everything went well.The kids already know their routine.They're better than first few weeks of school.Alhamdulillah.

They are the ones that make me come to work everyday.Not that I say colleagues don't.They do.But I love my children more.hehehe.I always joke around,ada anak 16 kena jaga.Bapaknya main tinggalkan ngan mak.kesiaaan.hehehe.

I even treat them like my own.Take pictures together,talk and joke like I live with them and such.Ada tu sampai dah terlalu manja.Tu part susah sikit.My fault sebab manjakan.muahaha.But I swear I'm the most fiercest teacher ever.Especially for my class.Kesian you might say tapi they became more discipline hokaaay!trust me!Garang biar bertempat.I don't know whether to erm find it postive or not but when Im angry with them,my voice satu sekolah boleh dengar.Kelebihan belajar pecah suara time dikir dulu.Actually jangan kata marah,cakap ngan budak-budak ni kengkadang kuat.Practically,I don't have to shout so many times for them to listen.Especially kalau ada mass gathering.Suara cikgu cikgu lain dorang kurang dengarkan,jadi my voice plays a part every time when this happen.hehehe.

I have no time for the outside world that much.sigh.too busy babe.nak dating pun no time.kerje,dinner,go home and tertido.tu jer kerje aku hari-hari.penat gila to the max.baru kindergarten belum primary or secondary teachers lagik.aku tak ada life okaaaaaaaaay.

setiap langkah.

2011-02-07T02:11:00.000+08:00

Aku selalu percaya bahawasanya
Allah ader sebab kenapa kita ditakdirkan
bertemu atau berjumpa dengan seseorang.

Dan aku percaya setiap harapan
yang aku letak,
ada hikmah disebaliknya.

Dan setiap takdir yang
ditentukan,
ada hikmahnya.

Buruk atau baik seseorang itu,
Allah lebih mengetahui.
(:

Cos for every risk I took, I put a little faith in it.

random day.

2011-02-04T19:27:00.000+08:00

1. I swear I've never been this busy.I've never been missing in action before.But as of today,I'm admitting that I'm full of guilt for I have no time for my friends.Specifically,since last year July.I feel so bad that I didn't have time to even visit Huda.Damn it!

2. Since I started work,I don't have time for D.U.S,Bestfriends,Desserts and to whoever I owe dates with.Penat dia,nauzubillah lah kan!Kalau really tak penat pun baru boleh find time to meet.Tu pun kalau boleh dekat dekat je.

3. It's been so long I step into Bugis,Orchard and other places that I always hang out.Now,work,dinner then home.Tu pun,kalau ader kawan ajak lepak midnight,aku sneak out!heh!

4. So here I am,I declare that I have no life as of now.6 days of working life but somehow makes me occupied!(:

5. A random entry for a random day like today.

tiring month!

2011-01-31T13:08:00.000+08:00

it has been a tiring month,seriously.so tiring that whenever i reached home,i fell asleep straight away.sometimes,with my makeup and work clothes still on.yes,that tiring.

and it's only January.December dah tak macam orang i think!

kecoh-kecoh at work

2011-01-22T00:46:00.000+08:00

Scene 1: Combine classes Nursery,K1 & K2.

A K2 teacher scolded a 6 years old girl for misbehaving in class.The girl was told to stack all K2 bags as a form of 'punishment'.She cried while stacking them.Then when we're about to dismiss,her 4 year old cousin,a boy,approached the teacher.

boy: you ah!very naughty!say sorry to her now.faster!say sorry to her now. (with that naggy face and finger pointing to the teacher)
K2 teacher: (gave a stern face and then laughed.)
yourstruly: (can't even afford to scold for being rude than just laughed so hard)

Scene 2: Drama Mama

A 4 years old boy out of the blue cried when it was almost time to go home.Curious,the teacher asked.

Yourstruly: Why you cry?Teacher tak marah kan?Kan dah nak balik.
Boy : (smiled widely) entah tak tau.
Yourstruly: (thinking it's cute thus,she just smiled and wiped away his tears.)

minutes later,yourstruly saw him crying again.this time rabak!

Yourstruly: Hey what happen?Jap lagi dah nak balik.Asal awak nangis?
Boy: (smile widely yet again) Entah lah cikgu.Mata saya masuk habuk agaknya.
Yourstruly: hah????amboi,dramanyaa?

Scene 3: Dah lama tak jumpa

Syafiqah came few days ago to sit in for the first time in my class as a form of mentoring.They've never met her before since Day 1 of school.Syafiqah was about to do her storytelling, my boy interrupted.

Boy: Cikgu,saya dah lama tak jumpa cikgu.
Syafiqah : ah?dah lama tak jumpa?kita baru jumpa hari ni.
Yourstruly: (laughed so hard.padahal padahal..)

There are many more laah.You know, no matter how *ergh* they can be in class but they're still my favourite little sunshines ever.No matter how hard it is to handle them,towards the end,they made my day.They are the ones who put a smile on my face despite feeling so lethargic!

From the bottom of my heart,thank you Nursery Earth!I love you sampai mati! <3

meanest

2011-01-19T12:49:00.002+08:00

i am not okay today.

you're so mean today.

just soooo freaking mean.

Life on 2010 and 2011.

2011-01-11T02:14:00.001+08:00

1. I've been wanting to update my end of 2010 and early 2011 but I just didn't have the time.I keep postponing it.I've been really really busy and sick.So far,my 2010 ended well.I didn't witness the fireworks this year simply because I was toooo tired from work.Blame on the Class Inspection so that means classes were decorated and arranged like mad!My 2011,started pretty well too.Pretty well to prove that my heart was smiling on the first day of 2011. (:

2. School has started and it was a total madness!On the first day of school,wisdom tooth decided to pay a visit!Exactly,6pm when school ended,I cried in total pain.Fever paid a visit as well.I could hardly talk and the only thing I did was just cry,cry and cry!I swear I hate myself that day.I hate the people who didn't bother to show concern.I hate that I was such an ugly bitch when I'm really sick!

I'm lucky enough that Syafiqah & Amalina came to work on that day.They gave me panadol eventhough they had a hard time crushing it using chopsticks (which I still don't understand why they won't use spoon),they made milo for me and looked after me so well!Whatever I asked for, they will find it for me!I was so sick that I couldn't even laugh while watching their silly antics!I couldn't thank them enough for their total care and concern.Afterall,they proved that "Kawan senang ada,kawan susah pun ader".From the bottom of my heart,thank you Syafiqah Samsubahar & Nur Amalina Zaini. <3

3. Weddings and engagements.For the whole of December 2010,I've been busy attending them!gila ah,i tell you!Tak tau lah bila orang nak attend aku punyer!lol.okay that one,joking only.I still got alot to do,to think of and to achieve before getting married.

4. My Nursery has been great so far.Great that I can hardly handle their hyper-activeness.Hari-hari suara awok boleh gila babe.Cakap baik-baik tak ada jalan babe.Tu yang aku heran tu!I'm not complaining cos I chose this teaching line but who would have thought that I will get a hyper-active students!Mana yang aku marah,tak load langsung,mana yang nangis nak mummy dari first period sampai nak balik,mana yang tak tau duduk diam.kecoh ah,i tell you!but deep down,they're still my little sunshines.They are the ones up till today,have carved a smile on my face.I got an identical twins in my class and up to this date,I still can't differentiate them.Panggil nama A,B yang jawab.macam mana tu.dua dua buat aku confuse!lol.

5. I decided to not continue my studies at UniSIM due to my current job.sigh.there goes my heart & soul for BA in Malay Language and Literature.My hard earned money cum deposit of $--- was non-refundable.heart pain pain! :((

6. I've not been meeting my friends basically from everywhere.my Desserts,my bestfriends,my poly gfs,D.U.S and many more who I owe a date.Being a kindergarten teacher who works from 8.30am to 6.00pm daily is totally a no joke.Every single day not just once a week okay.It really tires me alot.I apologised who I've yet to make time for you due to my hectic schedule.I worked 6 days a week and sometimes,I need my 7th day alone.At times too,I meet my colleagues for work.My life has been just about work.Nothing less,nothing more.No time to go dating so harap maklum.Sape yang bertuah tu,dapat lah jumpa lepas kerje kalau tak penat.

7. It's hard when you have friends who can hardly understand how busy you are.I'm tired of explaining.

8. No boyfriend but I'm happy on how my life is going on right now.I changed alot both bad and good since then.At times, you just can't help but to hate yourself so much.Life!

it's an update!

2010-12-27T15:54:00.000+08:00

Peace be upon you.

I apologised for the lack of updates as I've been very busy with work and life.hah!well,okay.I've been very lazy lah.nothing to update pun.since I'm taking a break from work,so,here it is.heh!

work has started since 15 Dec 2010. I've been very busy since then.Classroom Inspection by the MMB,lesson plans and worksheets.It has been a crazy week,I tell you.I even cry!stress level that point of time takle take it babe.Got home late for almost 12am and such.Alhamdulillah,everything have settled.Walaupun penat di muka tu ketara nak mampus, but I managed to pull through.I can't thank enough for the support from the lovely family,friends and colleagues.Thank you so much!

That's work.As for life,pretty much the same.I'm boyfriendless.harhar!Okay,besides the point.It has been the same.I'm blessed with great friends and colleagues around.Practically, I'm smiling alot more than usual.lol.

Just came back from a 3 days holiday at KL.I'm still shagged.Holiday was hell crazy with the cousins!i suka sekali.Pictures will be uploaded at my facebook. (:

truth hurts.

2010-12-12T02:31:00.000+08:00

ketawe banyak sangat hari ni.

and i told myself today, "ketawa banyak banyak,malam mesti nangis."

and unfortunately,it's true.

truth hurts.

way too hurtful.

like you're being stabbed in the heart.

little sunshines,you're missed!

2010-11-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

this song reminds me of my little sunshines.they sang this while doing their work.
sigh.
i miss them so much. :(

Disappointed with Capital D.

2010-11-20T15:42:00.000+08:00

I'm at the verge of shouting.I really really wanna shout but I'm controlling it.Thus,I'm keeping quiet which I know it won't last long cos I know I will cry - which I'm about to.I want to shout not because I'm stress with work.Work so far has been okay.Super okay.It's just me.It's just the people that enters my life sometimes makes me feel this way.

Call me emo but heck.Everyone has their emotional side.It's just on which level you are.I feel so frigging shit.damn emotionally shit to the maximum.I know I'm gonna cry which I'm trying not to cos I'm at work.

This is the worst I ever feel about myself.I'm so disappointed with you,Nurul Ashikin.

Very.

i dont know.

2010-11-20T00:30:00.000+08:00

the truth hurts.

not easy.

2010-11-19T04:27:00.000+08:00

i never knew being me is the hardest thing to be.

making decision falls second - or equivalent.

STILETTO.

2010-11-19T03:11:00.001+08:00

Biarkan saja diriku yang mengalah

Matchmake here, matchmake there!

2010-11-15T20:51:00.000+08:00

I love my new layout.It's so simple and nice.don't you agree?

Currently, I'm at the verged of meletup but I managed to control.I'm still controlling my emotions which I believe I can burst anytime if anyone langgar wayar aku.Serious cakap ah!Pergi mampos orang nak kata apa cos I need to stand up for my rights!

Holidays will start tomorrow and I seriously can't wait!I'm sure I will miss the colleagues down here!Only get to meet them friday onwards till monday!woohoo!It's the bond ah.I love each and everyone of them to bits (even when they give me hell at times).

I've been spending alot of my time lately with Kak Atee and Little Bestfriends.They've been my best members ever.The kids have been a cure whenever I'm down.Thank you to the 3 of you! <3

Yesterday,pergi jemputan.Anak cik Jun got married.So I went with the makciks lah kan since Syaf & Ama can't make it.Dalam kesibukan dan keriuhan kat jemputan tu,Tcr Suhana aku sempat recommed entah sape entah,dua lelaki kat aku.One is an Engineer aged 30+ and another one pilot aged 40.Yang mushkilnya, I've been matchmake with men aged 30+ okay.It makes me sound as if aku ni anak dara terlajak sey!Please eh!

Well the matchmake session ended just like that cos interruption by some other makciks!Thank god!

stick to you.

2010-11-11T02:04:00.000+08:00

I was being fickle.i thought my heart is already for tumblr but I guess, tumblr is just best for reblog entries.Well,it is still an entry.Reblog entries are what I'm actually going through.If only,you know how to read in between the lines lah. (:

However, I feel like changing the URL.just a maybe.see how lah okay?

Currently, I am super busy with Kinder & Madanis portfolios. Tak cukup buat kat office sampai malam,ku bawak balik sampai ke rumah.Not enough sleep for the past few days but it's okay.Pay back time next week onwards!Woohoo!

I am missing alot of friends right now.I miss Hafiz S,my Desserts,my Twinny B, my girlfriends etc.I'm too busy with work that I hardly have the time to meet them.Insyaallah, after everything is over,I try to find time.

My work has been okay so far.I love my job.I love what I'm doing right now.It's my ambition to be a teacher.Politics aside cos they're everywhere.But atleast, I have people who have faith in me,who believes in me,who don't boss me around,who thinks I'm capable and most importantly,they love me.I hate to admit this,but my workplace is my second home.

Physically, I think I've lost weight.Well,abit.Cos there's no canteen in the mosque.I had to go up and down the staircase for atleast thrice a day.This happens when toilets are on renovation, the temporary toilet is at the 1st floor and your class is at the 3rd floor.So,the possibility of losing weight is there.right?haha.

Emotionally, I am okay.Well, I should be okay.I am happy.For the first time in my life,I am happy with work that I always look forward for the day.Colleagues are friends.The office dah macam rumah,Nak tidur,nak lepak,lantak kau!hehe.I am not kidding.The work environment that I've been looking for.The bonding is just too family.Well,my second home mah!hehe.

Afterall, working in a mosque banyak hikmahnya.Prayers pun senang jadi tak selalu tinggalkan.lol.Colleagues are crazy people so I'm still being myself.Just that, part baju selalu ada masalah.Repetition of clothes have always been the case.Nasib kindergarten so these kids don't really pay attention to what you wear.hehehe!

My little sunshines are one of the reasons as to why I look forward to work.The feeling of getting hugs from them just as soon as they see you, really touched me.Even when you don't teach them at all.Little things like, "Teacher Nurul,teacher lawa nari" is flattering at times.Kids don't lie,don't they?lol.No matter how irritating they can be at times,at the end of the day,they are the ones that make me smile from ear to ear.

Don't be surprise if I told you that my K2 girl added me up in facebook.I went haywire for awhile.Don't know to accept or not which I made the decision to decline.Play safe,ya all. hahaha.Maybe, in time to come,I'll add her up lah.

I'm signing off for now.Back to the progress report card!

decision made.

2010-11-08T17:00:00.000+08:00

i'm shifting to tumblr soon.

yes,atlast, i've made my decision.

however,i won't be deleting this blog.

memory sake.

my private online diary is still in blogspot though

totally wrong.

2010-10-24T15:47:00.000+08:00

i shouldn't be feeling this way.

this is so so wrong.

dearest me, please wake up and face the reality.

you're just the 2nd choice.

reno there reno here.argh!

2010-10-13T17:54:00.002+08:00

i swear this renovation noise is getting unbearable!boleh gilaaaaa sey aku gini.and im freaking hungry.
period.

burst.

2010-10-06T23:05:00.000+08:00

i am almost THIS much to bursting out at work yesterday.
tapi ku tahan jebat.
i can get irritated easily when I'm having my period.
yesterday was really testing me.

i got a huge problem.

2010-10-04T03:56:00.000+08:00

the perfect bedroom I ever wanted.Pink and it simply sweet.Not too much.

Mak's gonna wake up in an hour time and I've yet to sleep.

I'm not even sleepy when I got work later on.

Insomnia,maybe?

Well,there's alot running through my mind.

Every little thing.

Like,why is my firefox so slow?

Why things have to be that way and not this way?

Why is everyone getting married and not me?

Why life has to be both hatred and love?Why can't it be just love?

Why people left me?

Little things but it made me ponder.

Ya know,sometimes you tend to think such things.

Don't deny,will ya?

Well at times, the questions you ask don't seem to have it's answers.

You just have to keep on think and think.

Little things became big when I think too much.

that's a huge problem already.

don't want an ending.

2010-10-04T01:55:00.003+08:00

Say you won’t forget and i’ll be okay

where and why?

2010-10-03T03:33:00.000+08:00

when you feel the person is just right for you
then you realised he belongs to someone else.
then you began to question yourself.
where are all the single good guys go to?
and why do i keep stumbling upon those who i feel just aint
right for me?

the question is where and why?

boleh gila

2010-09-25T02:16:00.000+08:00

i'm so stress up.
i have no idea what makes me stress but i feel like shouting as much as i can.
i need to let out whatever that have been kept in the heart and mind.
AKU BOLEH GILA AH.

dah lah mimpi bodoh.
banyak banyak orang boleh mimpi dia pulak tu.
i can feel his warm touch laaaaah.
and what made it worst was,he touched at my weakess spot.
go figure what!

petik jari,10 datang.

2010-09-21T09:34:00.000+08:00

"i can never look at anyone else when i already set my eyes on you."
the next thing,found someone else.
right.

easy hor these people find someone new.
orang kata "petik jari 10 datang".
tapi how come aku petik yang nonsense nonsense datang?
tak salahkan nak jadi cerewet?
you always want the best for yourself.
i can still accept imperfections but not people without future.

i don't know.
fated?maybe.

it's nice to know the one you adore,call you for a listening ear as he is comfortable talking to you
even if he was talking about someone else.but i know things happen for a reason.He always has plans for you.

ikutkan amarah ikutkan setan

2010-09-18T17:54:00.000+08:00

susah kalau bebual ikut sedap mulut.
susah kalau bebual tidak gunakan akal.
terasa?
then, it's time for you to think using the brain and not the butt.

buat apa ada yang tua tapi yang tua pun join sekali?
buat apa sekolah tinggi tapi lebih banyak gunakan perasaan.
buat apa jadi abang kalau akal macam budak sekolah rendah?
reality check,jangan ikutkan amarah.

hormat sebagai sedara masih ada
tapi hormat sebagai individu,minta maaf,tiada lagi.
thought you are one of the sensible one but i was wrong.
your trueself is well shown.well done.

masalah tak ada lah besar mana.
boleh diselesaikan oleh dua orang sahaja tapi
kenapa ada yang menyampuk sedangkan tak ada kena
mengena pun?
masalah jadi semakin rumit.
it became bigger than i thought.
so now,whose fault is it?

susah kalau masalah diselesaikan dengan amarah.
susah kalau tiada seorang pun yang gunakan akal untuk menyelesaikan masalah.
bila terjadi sesuatu macam ni,istighfar tak?
tak kan?tu pasal dirasuk setan.

tak sangka betapa kuasanya si setan.
kerana amarah hilang saudara
kerana amarah semua musnah.
kerana apa?
kerana terlalu ikutkan amarah.

andai ada yang terasa,jangan salahkan orang lain.
adalah lebih baik,cermin diri sendiri dulu sebelum menyalahkan orang lain.
lebih banyak gunakan akal dari perasaan untuk menyelesaikan masalah.
beristighfar lah dikau.

relief teaching.

2010-09-15T13:25:00.000+08:00

Am at Greenview now waiting for 1.45pm and then I chow for Kindergarten work pulak.Tak penat kot sebab kerja pun dekat and relief kat secondary ni tak teruk sangat lah kan.Cuma cekik darah sahaja ngan bebudak yang baru nak naik ni.

I feel stupid today sebab kelas express tak bawak buku kerja and it's 2 periods.seriously aku feel stupid that aku tak tahu nak buat apa ngan dorang.tambah lagi,ngan mata kiri ni merah gila nak mampos.it just dampen my mood more.aku macam nak sepak mamat yang seronok pegang hp tu.takpe,aku kasi chan.tunggu ah dorang next week.kau langgar wayar aku,tengok ah ape jadi.

Kak Yati ada bilang,sampai ada relief teacher nangis dulu handle this NT class.I've yet to see them prolly tomorrow.So,tengok ah eh aku nangis atau dorang yang nangis nanti. :D

Tadi je aku feel like slapping this one rude boy from Sec 5.Memang ah I/C melayu tapi actually amek bahasa cina abeh nak talk cock ngan aku.nak step gangster ngan aku.Geraaaaam je aku.Lagik sikit ah perangai samseng aku nak keluar.tunggu time ah budak budak ni.

Dah aku kata jangan pikir aku kecik,dorang nak pijak kepala aku.Bully eh aku maseh boleh handle but not being rude.tsk!

tanpa perasaan.

2010-09-14T01:14:00.000+08:00

i'm being heartless today.very much that I don't feel a pinch of whatever happened today.I felt nothing.naik rides pun tak rasa happy mana except for the Ancient Egypt ride cos that was hell of a goooood ride.I don't know what happen to me.All I did was just listen,ask and keep quiet.

This is not my first time either.I think it's better I feel this way at times so that aku tak rasa sakit hati selalu or sewaktu dengannya.

For sure,I am dead tired after today's outing.USS was okay.If only tak ramai orang and the rides aint that lame.Not worth it if you pay $66.Should have cost like $30 and below.tsk

Wan Sadiq is my Primary Schoolmate.

2010-09-08T03:15:00.001+08:00

Dear Sadiq,

Just you know,I'm still in shocked.How could you leave us without telling us at all?All this while I thought it was in Mid-September?But when I received Huda's sms "Sadiq kirim salam", I thought she met you or something.To my surprised, you are leaving for UK on that night.You bet,almost everyone of us cried hokay.9 months sey,9 months Sadiq!!Then,you're gonna posted to KL.I'm gonna miss your crazy driving during raya and most importantly, I'm gonna miss you very much.Who's gonna ask us silly questions other than you? <3

Oh,on a side note,better bring back something for each and everyone of us from UK.That's a must! :D

Love,
Kyn.

sudah settle.

2010-09-07T04:00:00.000+08:00

Things have been cleared.so no more hu-ha,no more involving me.glad that you confronted me cos that's the way it should be.I've said my piece and you said yours.kita happy happy sekarang.

Both are my friends but it just happen that the other one is my goodfriend also a brother.we share things together.Neither I'm siding him nor you.I'm being neutral.

(:

cos i know you read.

2010-09-04T05:53:00.002+08:00

1. To be honest,I really fell in love with teaching.Like alot.For those who has yet to know,I quit my CCPE job for good.I was so happy even though it was a short notice.Soon after,I got an offer to become a relief teacher for Kindergarten.I agreed with a wide smile.Now, they want me to apply for permanent because Im a nice teacher.hahaha.

Anyway,back to the story.Some say,little kids are hard to teach.Some say it's easy.Well,it goes both ways.They can be sooooo difficult.They won't pay attention and always wants to P.L.A.Y!Yes, they even spell the word play.A girl came up to me and said this, "Teacher,can we P.L.A.Y?" .That took me 5 seconds to think.I felt cheated.But when they really pay attention and remember what I teach,I felt happy.I felt proud.

2. My application for AED was unsuccessful.sigh.wah manyak upset but im still okay.Guess,i have to keep on trying kot.It's my 2nd attempt already.sigh.

3. Will be relieving malay class in GVSS on 15 Sept till 23 Sept.woohoo!then after that,continue with my kindergarten!rezeki tak henti henti.alhamdulillah. (:

4. I've not been giving myself a goooood sleep ever since ramadhan or perhaps ever since i start work at Istighfar.mana tidak!work starts at 12.30pm kau.seronok ke apa!then,ends at 4.30pm.heeee!so naik sedap ah tido. :D

5. Im leading a happy life right now.No worries for anything except money and future.Im glad Im friends with the right people.

6. Someone carik pasal with me.I can't be bothered actually.Benda remeh je but get so paranoid.Why don't you just smile and let everything happen for a reason.Takmo susahkan hidup aku boleh?Why make things difficult for yourself?tsk.

7. One piece of advice.Anything that you do for God,pls don't tell people.Tu namanya RIAK.

8. Another advice.Jangan jadi BODOH.

what's with you?

2010-09-02T03:25:00.000+08:00

you seem to keep up with my life,little girl.

mak kata kalau ada masalah bawak berbincang.

meh ah bebual!

disappointed.

2010-08-29T02:27:00.000+08:00

Nothing can describe my disappointment towards my blood.If only she knew what she was doing,it won't be like this.Just wish I won't see her this raya.I am so disappointed with you.

trying to get over with the guilt.

2010-08-24T02:57:00.001+08:00

Dah masuk 7 bulan aku tak contact H.Antara salah satu sebab ialah I'm busy.However, the guilt is still there since the day I 'left' him without telling him why.Sekarang, nak tegur dia kat facebook,msn or even sms dia, hati ni terlalu berat to do so.All I wanna do is to apologize to him and clear things up.Aku tahu dia benci aku for what I've done to him tapi he left me with no choice.

Tak tahu eh the reason aku 'left' him because I'm busy or because he told me he likes me or because aku memang tak ada time nak dating hari hari.Padahal kita kawan sejak 2006.Kita satu kerja dulu.Kita decided to jumpa only last year when he made the initiative to ask me out on 13 Dec 2009.Aku tak expect langsung but happy sebab dah 3 tahun tak jumpa kawan lama.Tak ku sangka, dalam diam, dia simpan perasaan.Since Jan 2009 pulak tu.It happens to fast. Tak sampai seminggu kita keluar,he already told me how he felt towards me.No matter how hard I told him that I'm still not ready and I just broken up from a relationship, he still keep on going.Macam menaruh harapan.

Yang paling penting, dia asek nak jumpa jer.Aku ni bukan nak kata tak ada time,tapi kurang gemar gi dating selalu.cukup lah dua kali seminggu atau dua kali tiap dua minggu pun tak pasal.But things were way different when I was with A dulu.Hari hari jumpa tak pasal lah pulak.Maybe because kita spend time mostly in school everyday and during the day aje.Balik sms jer.Tak la jemu kan.Well,kalau suka hari hari pun boleh kan?tsk.Anyway,H was different.Mungkin sebab aku tak ada feel ngan dia.Mungkin lah kan.So when H started to show all these hints and I wasn't ready for it,aku bilang lah kan.Terus dia emo.Aku part orang emo memang cannot take it.It's either aku mengamok or I just pujuk to sedapkan hati.Dia start lah dia nya "U kalau ada orang lain,U cakap.I can leave now".By now,you know what will happen kalau orang perangai macam ni kat aku.Lepas pujuk tu lah baru dia kata "I will wait for you.I wont find anyone else when I already set my eyes on you " - right.I hate it when guys say such thing.Tu namanya bull the shit.

To keep the story short,I didn't purposely 'left' him.I was so tight with work and I have no time to even reply an sms.School just re-opens so you should know how I feel.Terus communication broke down just like that.That's when I started feeling guilty.Ingat bulan ramadhan ni nak clear things up,but I guess I was too afraid of the consequences.

Sigh.

He once warned me, "I dulu pernah belanja this girl like always and tau tau she left me.So I hope you won't do the same thing to me as well." - and this was a week before everything changes.

Fried Rice Paradise

2010-08-22T03:03:00.001+08:00

FRIED RICE PARADISE WAS INDEED AWESOME!! <3

Not because there's Taufik Batisah but because it was really indeed good!

Review and more story about the musical in the next entry! (:

i love beverly hills.

2010-08-19T04:03:00.001+08:00

Hooked to Beverly Hills 90210.

The casts were brilliant.I just love Naomi.So bitchy yet a very nice girl.

aww everyone.

But I would prefer the original version of Beverly Hills.

I watched them on tv when I was a little kid.It was my favourite series!

If some love the Friends series,I prefer them.Much much awesome!

Now,Donna,Kelly and Brenda made a comeback in the new version.

Guess what?THEY STILL LOOK THE SAME!

EVEN MUCH PRETTIER THAN BEFORE!GOSH!

Day 3.

2010-08-14T01:06:00.000+08:00

Pretty much the same.Kids were extra noisy.Noise level cannot tahan.hahaha.Two students cried like a baby today and i feel so motherly.Duduk bersila lepas tu pangku budak nangis.alamak,touching kau kalau amek gambar.

right.

anyway,besides the point.I forgot to tell you that I went for a short 15minutes leg massage at bazaar geylang.crazy as it seems but i went for it after thinking about it too much.hahaha.Thank you Meiling for sitting right beside me and snapped those photos.lol.I is so malu and paiseh tapi tetap nak urut.Sedap kau feeling dia!Tak ramai melayu lalu lalang so I was brave enough to visit the no-business massage stall.lol.

my brain need to function properly cos I have 3 weeks of worksheets to come out with.OTAK BLANK!dammit!

Day 2.

2010-08-13T01:57:00.000+08:00

Day 2.It was a success,yet again.hahaha.I don't how and where these kids got their energy from.Well,puasa setengah hari so maybe that's why got lots of energy!haha!i yelled so much today.becok gila budak budak ni especially the girls.wa cannot take it!today not much of a complain cos i told them kalau gadoh atau complain,that's it stop playing.dengar kata lah pulak!!

they had their spelling today.bersungguh-sungguh "cher,spelling la,spelling la" lepas to cock up during the spelling test!!kesabaran je budak-budak ni.i actually scolded them, "awak eh.semangat tadi cher spelling spelling lepas tu sekarang tak tau spell!".lepas tu buat muka sardine and smileeeeee!eeee,geram!hahaha!

but at the end of the day,i always look forward to their hugs!one big family hug before they went home.ahhh,the feeling is so superb.you know that you're someone in their life when they start to call out your name from far and wave frantically.They do that EVERYDAY without fail. :)

i miss my Madanis students!Rindu marah dorang.Rindu ketawa at how funny they are.Confirm chop aku muntah kedarah this saturday!lol.

Day 1.

2010-08-12T00:36:00.000+08:00

It was a success.haha.dah macam orang tak pernah puasa lah kan.well,when you have to yell and at the same time teach this little kids,i don't call it easy.Omg,today seriously was a tough day.i yelled so much like i never yell before.budak-budak ni menduga kesabaran aku.mana yang complain lapar,mana yang complain sakit perot,mana yang complain kawan tolak,mana yang nangis,mana complain kawan marah.aku dah macam balai polis,handle complain je tak payah ajar.

masok class je,si Aiman came to me and whispered...

Aiman : cher,aiman sakit kepala.pening.
Yourstruly: abes tu nak teacher buat ape?puasa tak?
Aiman : puasa.aiman kena makan ubat.
Yourstruly: abeh bawak ubat tak?
Aiman : tak (and smile)
Yourstruly : drama eh awak.gi duduk sana.baru masok class je da pening.

little kids.no matter how dramatic they can be,they're still adorable.ni baru kindergarten je drama dia dah gini.kalau madanis ku lagik kecoh.boleh jadi pelakon terbaik suria dan sensasi! :p

today,my first time yelling at the kids.they were ohmygod,soooooo becok.kalau puasa je noise level dia unbearable,lebih baik tkya puasa.hahaha.i even asked the kids, "tak haus ke awak ni?lari sana lari sini.bebual banyak-banyak?".you guessed it right.they replied NO!kids!

updated.

2010-08-10T01:47:00.000+08:00

1. Ramdhan is here once again.I'm all set for it.Looking forward to tarawih, fasting and losing weight!Insyaallah and hopefully,it works.Also, let's make Ramadhan a start to change to someone better than before.Amin.

2. It's Singapore's birthday the 45th.I'm proud to be a Singaporean but I wish SG could be better.Please get rid of the "english and mandarin speaking preferred" cos this only adds on to the "so much for being a multi-racial country".Despite that,I'm thankful Singapore has no riots,wars,storms and tornado.

3. I miss being love.I envy at those who already got engaged or even married at such a young age.Everyday,I pray hard that I found the one.Orang kata kalau tak usaha tak kan dapat but I've tried and I'm tired.What should i do now?

the boyfriend.

2010-08-07T00:43:00.000+08:00

the Nursery students ; Irfan (left) & Izad (right).

I couldn't help not to stop smiling the whole day till my day ends.The handsome boy on the right came to me and pushed my head forward (kasar dok member!) and kissed me like how a boyfriend do - left,right,lips & forehead.Habis air liur dia all over muka aku.He then,hugged.I was so stunned and of cos,touched by what a 4 year old kid did.

He really made me smile from then till now.&He is my new boyfriend! :p

i was a boy.

2010-08-02T23:20:00.002+08:00

now,who wants to see my so kental nak mampos old blog?hahahaha.please excuse my vulgarities, my english and the way i blogged.they were in the past.secondary school days where i was like a boy more than like a girl.which of cos doesnt look like when i blogged.hahaha.yes,the bitch entry was about my own bestfriend.yes yes,i called Amirra that.yet again,it was during my secondary school days.

to compare who i am now, i am much much better compared to last time.dulu perangai asek nak maki,cari pasal ngan orang,tak happy ngan aku jumpa tetapi tetap senyum dan belajar.never once in my whole life of secondary school days i show people that i was pissed off or anything like that.muka masam pun tak pernah!sampai sampai people approached me and asked "how come aku selalu tengok kau asek happy je.macam tak ada masalah gitu".i still remember that question until today.but if you look at me today,muka masam sikit je orang dah spot.aku marah sikit je orang kata aku garang.

somehow, deep down i always wish that i was like last time.senyum and happy selalu despite everything i've been through.sigh.now,who say adult life tu gerek?

have fun laughing and criticizing the kental blog - www.baby-blueaholic.blogspot.com

yea yea,i was a big fan of baby blue last time and hate pink so much.KATA PERANGAI BOY per.hahaha.so last time,all my stuffs including my schoolbag was in blue!!lol.

one of the sunday!

2010-08-02T02:35:00.000+08:00

the things i bought in just a day.very impulsive! :p

but i don't mind though cos i need them.i dont mind spending $100 (or maybe lesser) for these much cos i buy only cheap stuffs.call me cheapskate but i freaking don't care.haha.i'm a happy woman when i buy cheap stuffs but will be so stress when i buy expensive stuffs.pelik tapi benar!lol.

i never bought anything from F21,Topshop,ZARA or anything that are equivalent to them.never!My heels,ohmygod,don't ever say it.none came from expensive or popular brands.NONE!but i'm still one happy woman.don't know what's gonna happen for my hantaran in the future!hahaha!

to end the 'misery' of shopping today,i had an awesome night with Kak Ju, Tina & Faat.laughing like no tomorrow lah sey!hahaha.while waiting for Kak Ju to arrive, we were talking about work.Tina punya selenger bacin went like this...

Yourstruly: A ada bilang dia nak orang during puasa for wardrobe assistant ke apa entah..
Tina: oh wardrobe assistant eh?best tau kerja dia.aku apply tapi tak dapat!! *burst into laughter*
Yourstruly : HAH? *burst into laughter* apa bebual ni?tak dapat kerja tu tapi dah tau best?hahahaha.

the best part was, she laughed like crazy after saying that.yes,before i could even go "HAH?".so typical of Nurbaitina bte Zainuddin.lol.

as i grow older.

2010-08-01T04:25:00.000+08:00

relative: rim, berapa anak kau?
ayah : 4.ni yang tua. (points to yourstruly)
yourstruly : (smileeeee)
relative : oh ni yang tua.abeh kau dah bermenantu?
yourstruly : (shocked with the qn but still smiling)
ayah : hahaha.belum lah..

not one but many asked Ayah that the other day Tok Abu passed away.All the orang kampung met.Apparently, bapak aku orang popular.So the questions asked pun boleh tahan popular.Nak aje aku jawab, "cari kan laki dulu cik".Nasib dorang tak tanya, "dah bercucu kau?"

phew.

as i grow older, i can't expect people to ask my parents "anak kau university mana sekarang?".it's all about marriage,marriage and marriage.lol.

it's a rough journey.

2010-07-30T03:56:00.000+08:00

I couldn't describe the journey I am currently going through right now.Thanks to the One above,I managed to pull through with lots and lots of patience.As much as I need a listening ear, I had to just keep it deep inside.That is so not me,I know.Now I know, how painful and hurtful it is to keep everything to yourself.I have no idea whether the friends noticed the change in me or not, but I certainly feel that I'm becoming more quiet than my usual self.

Is that a good thing or not?

Alhamdulillah, things are getting better.Some knew that I'm no longer a ccpe, some might just read this 1 minute ago and will go, "WHAT?WHEN?WHY?".I have my reasons.No one, I repeat, no one knew the exact reason why.There are times you just feel that your job is not for you and everything goes wrong.like,everything.I don't know how to tell my friends from the same batch as me and my cluster leader.they've yet to know about this and I am so gonna die for not telling them before hand.haha.Well,I'm glad that when I quit, rezeki came in soon after.I'm in love with teaching no matter how suck it is to prepare the lesson plans, materials and such.

Insyaallah, will continue studying next year in SIM.Hopefully,soon everything will be put to place.It all depends on Allah. (:

every single right.

2010-07-28T03:45:00.000+08:00

interesting.
a small portion of your entry was specifically dedicated to me.
how interesting.

let's just start where we should
and end it for good.

not that i wanna rake up things that already long ago passed,
but i have the EVERY SINGLE RIGHT to get emotional.

dah kira bagus aku tak maki balik
sebab bukan cara aku membalas dendam.
mak kata no good.
you should have consider yourself lucky
sebab aku perangai tak macam perempuan.
aku rasa kau pun tahu kan?bukan tak tau pe.

terus terang perkataan yang tersusun rapi lagi indah di status mu itu
pada suatu ketika dulu
sangat sangat mengguris hati (and that was why i told you once "im hurt more than how you felt".)
if only you think with your bloody brain before you typed those words.
IF ONLY,things wont be this difficult .

just you know.
everything that came out from my mouth since day 1 we knew each other
MAKE SENSE.
since the day 1 I knew you, I showed you my true self.
tak suka cakap,suka pun cakap.
kekadang aku tapis lagi ada supaya apa yang keluar dari mulut aku
tak lah sesakit mana.
kira okay lah tu.

the problem between us was you heard 'it' from someone which was totally bullshit.
dah lah benda remeh nak mampos.tak penting lagi ada.
tapi status kau, terus terang ah,masih terngiang ngiang.

so now,kau minta maaf dengan aku through your blog.
interesting.
kerana apa?sempena nisfu syaaban.kerana apa?ustaz kata hapuskan amarahmu dengan meminta maaf.
you should have done this LONG TIME AGO lah babe.
bukan tunggu ustaz kasi ceramah baru nak kata gitu.
i have the every right to get angry now sebab dah lama aku simpan.

i can be very cruel as to ignore your apologies.
i can be cruel than this infact.
I CAN AND I'VE DONE IT BEFORE.
tapi kerana sayangkan kawan lah,i won't be this mean.
kerana diajar supaya memaafkan sesama insan lah, aku MAAFKAN KAU.

it would have been better if you stop hiding.
if would have been better if you stop lying.
sama ada kat KL ke, Singapore ke, Thailand ke, Bangkok ke,which i believe everyone knows where you are now,
it would have been better if you tell us the whole truth.

i hate to a have a friendship based on lies.
it wont do good to you.trust me.
ni terus terang aku cakap.

yang selebihnya, terpulang pada diri untuk menilai.

happiness and it's myth.

2010-07-24T14:41:00.000+08:00

Found this about the myth of happiness in one of the online article.

Happiness Myth No. 2: Happiness is a destination.

Many people think of happiness as a destination or acquisition - whether it's marriage, money, or a move to a new location. Sure, things like these can contribute to happiness, but not as much as you might think -- only about 10% of your whole happiness picture, Lyubomirsky says.

If you've done the math, you now realize that about 40% of your happiness is in your hands. Lasting happiness has more to do with how you behave and think, which you ultimately control more than many of life's circumstances.

Robert Biswas-Diener, MS, founder of Meridian Life Coaching LLC and co-author of Happiness: Unlocking the Mysteries of Psychological Wealth, agrees.

"Happiness isn't the emotional finish line in the race of life," he says. It's a process and a resource. Biswas-Diener says there's a mountain of data showing that when people are happier, they become healthier and more curious, sociable, helpful, creative, and willing to try new things.

Make sense,isn't it?The whole thing about happiness and it's myth is so deep!Yet again, it depends on oneself on how they define happiness.

failed.

2010-07-23T00:40:00.001+08:00

once again i failed in love.

it is really killing me.

2010-07-18T22:25:00.000+08:00

the nude face.

muka tahan sakit perut,sakit hati and everything.

buruk face i know.

i went to jemputan with this face.

i just need someone to talk to.

with someone who dont know me personally.

this is really killing me.

the meanest thing ever.

2010-07-17T03:05:00.000+08:00

day 1 was a success for me.
i managed to keep my heartache.
i managed to not cry.
i managed to control my feelings.
i managed to keep it from anyone.
i managed to laugh.
i managed to smile.

i have until monday.
whatever the outcome gonna be,
i am sure i am gonna be alright.
i am gonna face it stronger than before.
i know i can.

i didnt know work can be this mean to me.
i didnt know that all my hardwork wasn't appreciated.
i fall down now but insyaallah, i will try to be better.
i just need time.

you are giving me stress.
each and everyone that involved.
i had to keep it to myself cos i dont know how to complain(like really complain) that im really stress.
i dont know how to react
i dont know what to do.
i just let monday comes by.

i just want to cry now but im controlling it.
so that when monday comes, im prepared.
atleast.

weekends.

2010-07-14T01:02:00.003+08:00

My first Mega Perdana and definitely it was indeed a satisfying competition since I last felt this was on my first competition in Tun Perak Piala Srikandi Alhamdulillah.Again,throughout this journey I learn alot.It wasnt easy to juggle my time between 2 work,dikir and family.Nanti nak sambung belajar lagi susah tu part,i need to make my priorities right.

My first experience with modelling.Just you know,it's not easy to be one.You need to know how to pose, your expression and especially the runway catwalk.The difficult part was to pose at the camera with the humongous outfit which was sponsored by Shireen Boutique. Each cost $300plus hor!Not an easy task hokay!But I learn alot during the competition.I aced in my interview which is pretty impressive.I learn how to catwalk for runway which is all thanks to Syasya Ngari.Like,she's so pretty and she has flat stomach lahhhhhh!Inspiration babe,inspiration!heh

July,please be nice.

2010-07-12T12:51:00.000+08:00

i need to give myself a break from dikir.like omg,it has been a tiring June for me.I thought I could relax abit in July but no,I will be having a pack month.Sungguh pack gila!

July please be nice to me this time.I had enough in June.It was a bumpy ride.

being an awok

2010-07-10T02:16:00.000+08:00

Ida told me that she cannot be semangat if the person next to her tak semangat.i was like alamak,i dont want to pull her down.so i try to blast out more and give my best.tak tau lah da tahap semangat ke belum.the good thing about being 2nd awok at the back,you can here the paluan more than the other side.but seating plan besok dont know how.the bad thing is, im sitting in between two good people.but i think lagi bagus duduk ngan yang bagus dari dengan yang macam paham kan?hmm.

dearest Ida,for I hope Im a semangat to you even though i seriously think i'm not to that standard.

too shagged.

2010-07-08T00:49:00.000+08:00

teary and warm eyes.
flu that never stops.
shagged nak mampos.

as much as people will say,orang lain pun penat juga, itu semua crap.
im too tired.both physical and mental.
banyak benda nak kena pikir besides training.
masalah kerja,keluarga dan diri sendiri.
the burden is too heavy that at times,i feel like giving up
but i never did.
i keep trying instead.

mana nak tambat hati boss yang kekadang boleh tahan kurang ajar dia.
mana nak tambat hati mak ngan ayah kat rumah.
mana nak tambat hati kawan supaya taklah aku singgung hati sesape.
mana nak tambat hati sendiri supaya jangan asek putus asa.
myself wants the best out of her but i cant carry it.
terlalu berat.

2 more days and it's over.
i swear i need a break.

22 years of life.

2010-07-05T10:13:00.000+08:00

I slept at 4am yesterday when actually I have work at 8am today.From midnight till 4am I spent my time remisnicing old photos from 2006 till 2009 in my multiply.I spent my time laughing and unfortunately,crying.I couldnt help but to smile at those sweet memories.Every smile that I had in those pictures,tell a different story.Unfortunately,I crumbled along the way.God tested on me to show how much patience I have in me.Alhamdulillah,I managed to pull through with the help of Him,friends and myself.

Yes,myself.If it wasn't for myself,I dont think I would be this sane till today.Like the malay sayings, "Pucuk pangkal diri sendiri." As much as I had to cry almost everyday for the unfortunate moments that I had to go through, I always tell myself to be strong and move on no matter what.There are some things that I prefer to hold back.There are some things that I prefer to keep no matter how painful it is.I had to cos these are the ones that make me today.

9 years ago when I was first dumped by the ex-boyfriend at the age of 13,I was so childish that I ran to the toilet as soon as I received the news.So dramatic that I didnt do anything to the whole break up thing.I cried in public,infront of his friends.When I recalled those times,I felt so childish - running to the toilet and then,new boyz lyric Meraung was given to me to ease the pain.Crap,I know.

9 years later,I'm a better person.I learn through mistakes.I learn through past relationships.I learn through life.Everything that makes me now.So when things didn't work out with some people,I didnt go to the toilet and cry like fuck.No more hindustan drama.I'm a crybaby but I hide unless of course I can't control it lah then that one another story.

I made people cry, I made people angry and I left some for another reason.If any of you were to read this one day,I apologised.Karma has finally hit me.Yesterday, I left someone for an unreasonable excuse and today,the same thing happen to me.The power of karma.

22 years of life really showed me that age doesnt matter.It's how I make my 22 years of life wonderful and Insyallah,in many years to come.

YOU YOU YOU!

2010-07-01T11:35:00.000+08:00

YOU didn't get me involved.
YOU didn't wish to tell me any info about the expedition.
YOU tell me you will settle with R.
then later, YOU will tell the management I DO NOT have the initiative.
for I really wish I could shout vulgarities at YOU!

will be awayyyyy

2010-06-30T13:44:00.000+08:00

I'll be going off on the 8 to 10 August for an expedition trip to somewhere in JB.However,I do not have the details yet cos my RO chose to spread the news to ALL E1 schools but not me.Very nice hor? tsk.

But before that, I will be going for OBS with the Secondary 3 students on the 26 to 30th July..woohoo!I can't wait lah sey!It's been years I've not tried the flying fox,absailing and such.suka suka suka!

congratulations!

2010-06-29T15:38:00.001+08:00

Big congratulations to Girlfriend Jun & Sakai , Hanim & Faizal on their Wedding and another congratulations to Cousin Aishah & Hisham , Girlfriend Huda & Rafie on their Engagement.

LOVE IS IN THE AIR,YA ALL!ENGAGEMENTS & WEDDINGS ARE EVERYWHERE!

Here I am feeling demoralised! :/

tentang hari ini

2010-06-27T05:03:00.000+08:00

hari ini aku sangat gembira kerana setelah sekian lama tak jumpa kawan kawan polytechnic.setelah sekian lama tak lepak sebegini rupa.tadi kita lepak sambil supper di kampong glam cafe.tempat favourite Farhanah tapi sekarang sudah jadi kegemaran aku juga.

yerlah,semenjak kedai kegemaran aku yang terletak di hadapan Kampong Glam cafe sudah diganti dengan pemilik baru - yang secara kebetulan teman sekolah menengah dulu.dah maju member babe.heh.

yang penting member lama dah bebual dengan aku balik.tu yang best tu.well,orang kata patience will pay it all.tak ku sangka,aku sabar selama 3 tahun.lama tu babe.walaupun member makin nonsense to the maximum punya,aku tetap happy sebab dia member lama.

sekarang aku dalam dilema.perempuan yang pernah carik pasal ngan aku time sec one dulu,kita gaduh dulu tu sampai sekarang aku tak bebual tu dan sampai jadi jiran depan rumah pun aku tak bebual kalau berjumpa tu,nak tunang minggu depan.dia jemput keluarga.yes,one whole family including me!tapi nasib aku kerja.heh.jahat i know.

but i cant remember why i hate her so much and i cant remember why i can't forgive her.susah tol lah aku ni.masalah tu!

black & pink

2010-06-26T02:22:00.000+08:00

new layout yet again.i can't stand navigation for too long ah.just not me like that.i fell in love with this layout instantly.black and pink! :D

gambar kat atas ni tak ada link tapi saya letak je.suka suka hati gitu.hee!

Lagenda Budak Setan

2010-06-25T16:50:00.001+08:00

Trailer dia gerek babe.aku nangis lah eh.yer,aku nangis.baru trailer aku dah nangis movie nanti macam mana agaknya.haha.Adaptasi dari sebuah novel yang sesungguhnya tuan hamba belum baca lagi.Insyaallah,saya akan cuba cari novel ini di perpustakaan terdekat lah yer.Kalau sesiapa ada,pinjamkan saya k? :D

Sipnosis pun boleh tahan.Tak sabar nak tengok.wooohoo!

Membuai jiwa, meruntun perasaan, mengundang ceria segala suka duka terhimpun di sini. adakah senyuman yang tercipta atau airmata kesudahannya? hanya Tuhan yang menentukan segalanya. . . Lebih satu dekad Kasyah mencipta cinta. Dari lelaki yang tak pernah kenal erti kasih sayang. . . dia menjadi pencinta agung. Dia tabah mengharungi apa saja. . . demi sumpahnya mencintai ayu sehingga ke akhir hayat. Setulus manakah agaknya cinta seorang lelaki yang pernah dilabelkan sebagai budak setan kerana kenakalannya di zaman persekolahan? Namun, berjayakah dia menyunting Ayu menjadi permaisurinya? Akan bahagiakah dia? Mampukah dibuktikan pada dunia. . . cinta adalah segala-galanya! Cuma Ayu yang punyai jawapan itu. Dan, Allah sebagai penentu! Dan, siapakah pula Katerina?

Dan rasa rasanya tagboard aku ada macam tak ada gunanya je?Tak ada orang nak beri komen ke? :)

disappointed,seriously.

2010-06-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

you are such a disappointment.tetiba je geng,tetibaaa!

pompan gemok in Top 20.

2010-06-18T10:36:00.000+08:00

And so,si pompan gemuk kat atas ni got herself into the Top 20 when she least expect it.She actually stop asking her almost 'thousand' over friends to vote.She was like,"banyak pompan lawa lawa kurus kurus tinggi tinggi masok.confirm dorang boleh menang!".She didn't give up,just couldn't be bothered.Didn't know it would reach up to 118 votes.That means she has already approached 118 friends.How the hell she did that?So superb ah she! :p

She actually scanned through the 3 albums and tried to check out the Top 20.Kauuu,they are much prettier,skinnier and of course taller than her.Confirm cannot make it one!DIE AH DIE!She feel so small (which I already am) in between these girls.She should have given SyraSkins the ugly picture! :p

The best thing is,her so called 'ex-boyfriend' current gf is in the Top 20 as well.Confirm dia pening eh nak support mana satu.hahahahha!

And she's the only contestant wearing tudung.All the best ah wa cakap sama lu!

p/s: agak agak in 2 weeks boncit aku boleh hilang tak?heehee!

it's all about the chemistry.

2010-06-17T10:07:00.000+08:00

i promised chombz i will blog about her in return to what she had blogged about me.not because she blogged about me then i want to blog about her.i guess,she deserved one entry since i knew her in 2006.but i will definitely do so when i am not busy.

currently,my mind is in a mess.have no idea what to do and which to do first.honestly,i hate my RO.i hate that he has no good relationship with me.Well,he does infront of people but I guess,i dont have the chemistry with him.It's either because he's an Arab or he's a man.That shows,i can't work well with man.sigh.

don't get me wrong.i have nothing against Arab but he just proved to me how a pure Arab behaves like.I'm never a fan of Arab men.never.maybe,it's just me and myself.He scares me sometimes with the fact that he's already married and he's huge.Okay,married part not so important.I hate huge and body build man.tak kira dah kahwin or not.They made me feel so inferior.They made me feel so small.

I guess I need to go out from this little scary cat of myself and just create that fucking chemistry.I tried but will keep on trying just for the sake of work.

I have no problem with my past jobs but this fella seems to have some kind of a problem with me.Kata dia,kata dia je.after that tell Manager all the bullshits things.At times,i wish i was like Disa who just say out whatever she feels even it offended the other party.

sigh.

akibat fake sakit.

2010-06-16T12:32:00.000+08:00

i just came back from the clinic.guess what,everytime i tried to apply MC cos nak fake sick,i will always get sick in the end.the reason i wanna apply mc cos Ama's and Syaf's Degree graduation.Cos the other day,they went for my diploma graduation and now,my turn.Well,i miss out their diploma graduation as well last time.hahaha.

Nak fake sakit,cakaplah sakit kepala.kerana ghairah sangat,aku si pandai gi bilang doctor makan pill lama cos before this pun sakit kepala.sekali doc becok ni tanya color apa pill tu.alamak,kantoi!aku si pandai ni pun pegi cakap color yang bukan bukan.asal boleh aja!then,he gave a smirking sound!ergh.

dah tak nak fake sakit lagi ah.irritating peh doctor!

2010-06-14T00:44:00.002+08:00

my weekends were awesome! :)

production,dikir and you! (:

Your loss is our loss too.

2010-06-05T23:50:00.001+08:00

Dearest Nur Ayunni,

I'm very sorry to hear about your loss.Condolence to you and family.But I'm sure that every friend would feel the same way like I do.We are upset (not angry) with the fact that you didnt inform us.atleast,one of us.we are good friends and still together since we were 13.I was very upset that I found out through your facebook status.your facebook status that your dad passed away yesterday night.i may sound so selfish but if you could update it in your facebook why not us.

Your loss is our loss too.We are not just your passerby friends.We are your good friends where we grew up together seeing how each of us being successful in their own life.We knew each other family not that we don't.Well,we understand that you are still in shock cos it was too sudden.We do,Ayunni.Just that,we hope you could have tell us earlier.Tinggal pun tak jauh.We are just separated by the Pasir Ris Community Centre.

Trying not to be an unreasonable and selfish friends.We will visit you when you feel better.Just to let you know,you are an important friend.All of us is.Takziah to you and family once again.

Al-Fatihah.

she's back.

2010-06-04T09:20:00.001+08:00

queen complaint is back to school.well,today is not the official day but when school re-opens i'm gonna get hell.dekni diam diam lepu.depan baik belakang fuh,macam machine gun mulut dia!if she can talked about my RO infront of me to other teachers,she can definitely do the same to me.

so Nurul,you have 3 more weeks to feel how's freedom like.

this happen when im bored

2010-06-02T15:41:00.000+08:00

i gave up trying to get the paragraphs with spacing.i google,trial and error,everything that i can think off but the spacing between each paragrah still tak boleh.

i dont wish to put

at every entries.very mafen.i want a one time css code then wala.if you readers know,please email me at noorul.nabihah@gmail.com or just leave a message at my tagboard ok?

new layout cos i was bored at work and the previous skin was quite dull.simple yes but tak appealing.cerewet ah aku eh?haha.

meeting kecoh!

2010-05-18T01:42:00.000+08:00

my first to the E1 Cluster Meeting just now over at Downtown East.My oh my,never did I know that half of us hates _____.It was very funny and I can click instantly with some of the ccpe(s).Just that whatever the leader talked about the Appraisal,I just dont understand a single thing.I just dont know what was going on and I cant be bothered to ask.Rupa rupanya ramai yang sekepala dengan aku! :p

Yang paling best Radziah went like "I saw you kat bus stop.I was smiling at you tapi kau buat dek je.Tak nampak agaknya." Another one commented on my potekness.hahaha.

Very leceh sey.My contract ends in November.It's either I quit or I continue.The problem is,I cant bear to leave GVSS cos my heart is already there.Great colleagues,near home,the students and such.Just that,I hate to work with that company and my boss.Will see how it goes lah.

Down With Love.

2010-05-16T02:26:00.002+08:00

Currently,Im crazy over this Taiwanese Drama at Channel U.Knowing me,I'm not a fan over Taiwanese nor Korean drama.but Down With Love made me hooked to it!All thanks to my youngest sister!

Down With Love is just like any other drama.you bump into someone and then always fight whenever you see each other and then,fall in love.typical.but I fell in love with the drama not because of the storyline but because the actors and actresses carried out their character very well.Very very well that I love how a tomboy fell in love.haha.Though I dont really find Jerry Yan is as cute as Taufik Batisah or Dude Harlino but his character made him look like one.Yu Ping (Jerry Yan) and Yang Guo (Ella Chen) made a good drama couple!I suka sangat tengok how they confess love!Plus Ella Chen's very selamba character,I double suka! :D

I can't wait for next week episode.25 episodes and 10 more to go!woohoo!I googled earlier on when I got to know that some places have already aired all the episodes.Sekali disappointing to know it has chinese subtitle.I tak paham you see.So tak jadi lor.I shall wait for next week! :D

Go watch.youtube has all the 14 episodes (Yes,it includes today's episode as well) !Go watch and you fall in love with it like me! :)

Insyaallah boleh! :p

2010-05-09T02:12:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is the day.The big day of all dikir baratis.Something that everyone been looking forward to.Something that I've been wanting to get a taste of how Mega Perdana looks like.Well,tomorrow this is it.Whatever the results gonna be,I know I've tried.I may not be the best awok but atleast I've put in effort.Well,atleast.My attendance was never full due to work and family commitments.It was hard,very very hard.I couldn't even remember the countless apologies I've made to Kak Manisah and Tina for not coming.Tak tahu lah dorang paham ke tak tapi Insyaallah lah eh paham.heh.Throughout this journey,I fell sick.Sakitnya hanya Tuhan je yang tahu.Tidur sampai tak bangun next day.Pergi doctor balik,tidur balik.Phew,seronok juga jadi orang sakit ni eh? :p

Insyaallah,tomorrow gonna be just fine.For me,I dont expect to win but atleast aku dapat menimba pengalaman.Well, it might be my first and my last.maybe je lah.Apa pun,it has been a great opportunity to be with Srikandi.Tak pernah terlintas to join them pun.Selalu pikir aku kurang bagus to fit in the group.Actually memang tak bagus ah.haha.My 2nd competition this time.Semoga berjaya besok!Amin Amin. :)

Faizal said I look like kuih baulu stress.So I need to sleep already!muahaha!

kau pergi jua.

2010-05-07T16:06:00.000+08:00

Salam ya all.

Today I lost a student who I never expected to go this early.My Madanis student whom I teach dikir during my volunteer times.He has been a good student and barely make any noise in class or during training.The one who I always see him with earphones on his head every time he came to school.He's different from normal students but you are always special in my eyes.

Dear Muhammad Hassan Bin Othman, Madanis will surely miss you.Semoga kau tenang di alam sana.

22 wishlists for my 22nd!

2010-04-26T17:13:00.001+08:00

and so,my birdday is just round the corner.excited?pretty much.soon,imma gonna be 22. :D

when everyone else does not like their age to be disclose or hate to grow older,i dont mind at all.i dont mind telling the world im 22 and getting older.cos fortunately,as i aged,i dont look old.some still thought im 18. :D

like everyone else,like every year,here are my wishlists.lagi tua,lagi lah kurang hadiah.betol tak?:p

1. Canon 500D.
2. Polaroid camera.
3. a special meetup with my Fours (Dila,Apid & Idris) cos I miss you guys like this much.
4. movie date at Vivo Gold Class.
5. red siletto size 9.i have big feet!
6. tube jumper(long pants) in black,grey or red.
7. lots and lots of aladin pants. :D
8. suprises.(hahaha) or dinner.
9. Taufik Batisah sing for me personally. (fat hope lor!)
10. pink and white roses.
11. shawls and more shawls.
12. Istyle headgear in different colours.
13. iphone casing pun can lah.lol.
14. to go on a fun date with a proper guy.hahahaha.
15. a backpack or Charles & Keith bag.
16. to eat over at Seoul Garden!
17. an ice cream cake.
18.color contact lenses with 0 degree.
19. to be a successful woman one day who can multi-task work.
20. make everyone proud of me.
21. to get married with the right guy.
22. to be spending my time with just friends and family.

there you go. 22 wishlists for my 22nd birdday.not all can be achieve but i can atleast claim some right?lol.there are just some things that i wanna buy when pay comes in so i just insert them inside.haha.Canon 500D and Polaroid camera every year the same tapi tak pernah kesampaian.Iphone casing better be pink or black or both cos I got myself an iphone for my own birdday present.the movie date,that one depends on me whether im agreeable to go out with a guy or not.hahaha.and yes,i swear i never eat at Seoul Garden before.never.kental i know and i have no idea why aku tak pernah jejak sana for dinner or lunch.lol.number 21 tu just to complete the wishlists lah. :p

hope you have something in mind for me!hahaha.if you want to get something for me (hahhaaha) but it's not under my wishlist,it's okay.please go on with your plan.lol.

hope aku tak selenger macam last year lagi.!hahaha!

the judge?

2010-04-20T17:06:00.000+08:00

English Competition just now and I was the judge.I had to choose Top 3 for 4 Categories and ohmygod,it was hell tiring.not easy i tell you to choose the Best Resume,Best Persuasive Writing,Best Advertisements and Best Short Film Critics.

Best Persuasive Writing tu memang aku tak paham langsung jalan cerita so aku suruh colleague rate kan.lol.Tapi the rest was quite ok. :D

Going off already.Need to meet up with Yussof!so leceh!

simple.

2010-04-19T16:52:00.000+08:00

a simple layout cos i wish to have it just white and simple in my eyes.
but i may get bored soon after.
hahaha.

finishing work in 10minutes and then,off to Popular to get myself a personal diary.i need to keep track with date and time.

will always do.

2010-04-19T01:11:00.000+08:00

setiap insan yang hidup pasti akan pergi satu hari nanti.
dan tanpa diduga,the one whose songs i listen to always, is gone forever.
Allahyarham Abdillah Murad @ Achik Spin,you will always be remembered.

I teared so much when watching Melodi this afternoon.
I can surely feel her daughter's feeling cos I've been in her position before.
dan mungkin,Tuhan juga mengerti perasaan ini.

Al-fateha.

wonder and ponder.

2010-04-07T11:28:00.000+08:00

I know I shouldnt be so paranoid about relationships.Especially,at this age cos I believe,I still have a long way to go.Partly,true.However,deep down in my heart, I cant help it but to feel the pinch whenever I saw couples around me.Jealous much?To comfort myself,I always tell myself that one day someone out there will be my one and he will be the only one.Cliche,I know.

At times,I scare myself by asking "how if one day,i wont have anyone to lean on for the rest of my life.how if one day,i wont get married?".By the thought of it,I wonder and I ponder.I wonder how does it feel to be loved by a person called Man.When was the last time I was in a relationship?8 years ago?when I was in secondary 2.Zaman Cinta itu Monyet.I've yet to feel the real term Cinta itu Indah.

I will reflect on myself as to why I do not have anyone who will stay rather than leave.Hina sangat ke diri ni,cerewet sangat ke aku,pathetic sangat ke aku atau hodoh sangat ke?Low self-esteem aye?Or is it my behaviour?or my character?or is it the way i talk to people?I can't deny the fact that I cant talk nicely to a guy.Aku bukan wanita melayu terakhir.Sopan memang sopan.hormat memang hormat.But Im a loud person you see.Bebual mesti kasar.I tried to change tapi tak boleh.dah semula jadi aku agak.

Well,mungkin belum jodoh.Kalau aku bilang mak aku nak kahwin sekarang pun,mesti mak aku kata aku miang sangat.hahaha.Adik perempuan aku ada matair.dah nak 2 ke 3 tahun.adik lelaki aku baru break few months ago.together pun around a year.tinggal aku dengan adik bongsu jer.Si bongsu can take her own sweet time.Baru 17 years old.So tinggal aku jer.Cousin yang a year older,June ni nak tunang.Kawan baik yang putus berapa bulan lalu,dah ada pengganti.Abeh aku?Christmas 2020 baru ada kot.

Nenek was asking me whether I have someone.The sound of it so scary.Like Im already 26 and I have no one in my life.hahaha.For I hope I can grow old with someone I love.Insyaallah.

SMILE WIDE WIDE!

2010-04-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

AISEYMAN.

What more can I say.Taufik Batisah is always the best laaa wey.I think he's gonna be like Siti Nurhaliza.Gonna win alot of awards in Sg.Baikkkkk doh! :D

On a side note,tomorrow kene report for Maulidur Rasul at 7.30am!!!KERJE GILA BANGUN PAGI PAGI!heh.

Yang paling penting 5 award dia angkat!!woohoo.

Happy girl signing off.

i wish

2010-03-29T15:02:00.000+08:00

I wish to type what I felt here,on this page but I cant.

I wish to let out the disappointment I faced but I cant.

I wish to slap a person so much but I cant.

So much anger,so much disappointed filled me.

I cant put my mind off from what he said.

It was too harsh,it was too childish and it was not true.

I just dont understand why I cried every night as I kept thinking about it.

These words aint enough to show how disappointed I was.

I wish they think first before saying such things.

I wish.

TOSS A COIN

2010-03-19T23:27:00.000+08:00

It was between moving on and hoping.I secretly hope that you would come back but I guess,moving on is the best choice.

berat hati

2010-03-16T11:59:00.001+08:00

i've said this alot of times - i feel like moving to tumblr.onsugar is aint my type after I mingle with it for months.I just can't understand how the change of layout took place and basically,i dont know how the whole thing works.tumblr is alot more easier but i still cant take my leave from blogspot.

i am a sentimental kind of girl.i keep old stuffs,letters and etc.anything for the sake of memories even it was a bad past.i still keep the letter from a guy whose a year younger and had a major crush on me.hahaha.so when it comes to the blog that I've ranted on for years since 2004,i can't take my leave just like that.berat hati gitu.how like that?

on the other note,i got my laptop already.woohoo!it is still with the plastic cover on and all.it looked so new!i'm still getting used to Microsoft Vista.I dont understand how it works laaa.

something to look forward to for the next few months - iphone and dslr for bali.woohoo!

life has been it is

2010-03-11T17:00:00.001+08:00

currently,the staff room at this hour full of teachers.very rare,i tell you!but that is because,there will be secondary 2s and 3s PTC for 2 days.At the same time,some of them(including me) busy moving our things to the Commerce Room as part of the staff room will be renovating during the March Holidays.

Yes,no more me sitting beside a big irritating pillar.no more squeezing myself.New tables,new shelves and definitely,new seating area!woohoooo!

Today's the IT Fair.I'm gonna grab something from there.well,hopefully something useful!I can't get myself a DLSR cos money not enough like that.So something that below $200.I've clinched a deal with my cousin.We were talking about Iphone(yes,I'm planning to get one next month) and then,laptop.I was planning to get a cheaper laptop(actually) at the IT Fair but the cousin told me that her friend wanted to sell her less than a year laptop.After I got all the details and I was so satisfied with all the conditions,I got it at $450!No not those mini laptop,the normal laptop just like the size of my old laptop but better lah of course.The problem is,it is in Microsoft Vista.but nehmind,Shahera should know what to do!hahahha!

GOOD DEAL KAN?!wooohoooo!

On the other note,I had a great weekend with my cousins and friends.it was the busiest weekend ever,seriously.Pictures will be uploaded as soon as I get my hands on the new laptop!

that is one of my crazy cousins - Saifulrizal.

2010-03-05T12:50:00.002+08:00

i am very busy.

kindly find me when i'm not.

and yes,the links to go to another blog,is not working!

yang merindui.

2010-03-03T01:36:00.000+08:00

mulut kata lain.
hati kata lain.
sering kali mulut yang berkata dan bukan hati.
tapi kali ini hati ingin berbicara.
berbicara dengan penuh ikhlas.

andai dia tahu hati ini sering rindu kan dia.
entah rindu kan teman atau sebaliknya.
yang pasti rindu yang teramat sangat.

hati ini dengan seikhlasnya ingin mengucapkan
Selamat Hari Lahir.
semoga dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki.
Amin ya Rabbaalamin.

sigh.

lahir dari hati

2010-02-25T16:41:00.002+08:00

i hate it when i feel this way.

hate it hate it hate it hate it.

and i hate it when i miss him this much!

i have no time to update.

2010-02-25T10:17:00.000+08:00

Peace upon you.

How's your holidays so far?Well,I tried to spend the days wisely.hahaha.anyway,i shall just briefly blog about how my january and february so far,okay? (:

1. January was a hectic month.i had to juggle with two jobs and dikir trainings.It wasn't easy,i tell you.6 days of working life and the 7th day is dikir day.i had no life throughout that one month.hahaha.god knows how shagged i was.what's the end result?all our efforts paid off.We won first.My first competition with them and it was indeed a memorable journey.

pictures credits to Naqiah Siti and Chegu Thamrin.

2. During that hectic month, i managed to free myself on one of the days for Fariza's Birdday Celebration.Same place,same spot for the birthday girl which i believe,it's not the same cake!hahaha

3. Slowly,i got my life back.hahaha.meet up with some friends to make up my busy days since i started work.guess who?my primary school friends that i've not been meeting up for months!

pictures credits to Iqbal Zaidi.

4. Well,Srikandi was involved in Dikir Puteri Shooting.We had one shoot few weeks before the competition and another two days shoot a week after the competition.Now i know how tiring it is to act even without dialogue!YES,most of us including me acted without any dialogue except props.One of the days,i acted holding a rebana and it's DM's rebana.punyer lah berat nak mampos.dah tu,we had to go up and down the staircase for so many take!panas dia hanya tuhan je tahu babe.nasib kita tak kene turun naik tingkat 1 ke tingkat 3.yes,we acted in a 3 storeys high bungalow.tu baru takda dialogue.yang dengan dialogue dua kali ganda aku agak!due to the several takes taken, aku sampai hafal Nisa's and Fifi's dialogue eh!

Indeed,it was a good experience.What happened during the shoots just let it remained that way.So readers,dont forget to watch Dikir Puteri,7.30pm,every Tuesday on Suria. (:

5. CNY was spent at home and friends.Went out for cycling with Tina,Hairil,Aky,Arep & Dila.Hangout at Dila's family picnic and went home at around 11pm.

6. Watched My Name Is Khan with Naqiah Siti at GV Tampines.Oh my God,sumpah very good ah but I didn't tear that much not as much as I teared for 3 Idiots.That one,berbaldi baldi sey.But MNIK is a very gooooood movie and open up the eyes of many.On a side note,Kajol is very very very pretty since the first time I saw her on tv - time Kuch Kuch Hota Hai.I was simply in awe when I saw her on the screen.

7. What else?oh ya,the latest was to send the Best Actor to the airport.Walau,god knows what happened and all those drama mama shits.Aku dah macam budak bo to the doh sampai kat airport dont know what happen at all.lepas tu,dapat tau it's all drama and they are going with the actor's act.ok lah,knowing myself to be patient enough,I followed everywhere they go.Nak balik,dont know how (Yeah,so much for an eastsider).So nak tak nak,I waited for the drama to end.Atleast,you watched it live you see and you get to be an actress *roll eyes*.Tembelang pun dah pecah and whatever I said to the Actor it doesnt seem to stick in his head.GUA DARAH UP BABE!kalau tahu waste my time like this,aku tak jejak ah tu airport!

8. I speak like minahrep already.Orang bingit selalu terpesong ke arah lain sikit.So pardon me ah.My name is Nurul and I'm not a minahrep! :p

9. Met up with Yan the other day to send my canon baby to ICU.So heart pain to know that she hurt her nose(read:lens).She was in a bad condition and had to stay for about a week!Collected it yesterday with Tina and Yan and I felt so happy.She is back! After that,met up with Dila to hang out at Henderson Waves.Dont ask me why there,ask Tina.I lost like 1kg I think after such a long walk at the Hortpark!The next thing I knew,my stomach so flat today.ppfft!

10. Random meet up with Fariza on last Tuesday.Supposed to go to one of my fb friends,Eve to get my shawls which I purchased from her.She was only free after mahgrib and to kill time I called up Fariza since Eve stayed few blocks away from her.Jumpe at Bugis and shopped like crazy.haha!After so long tak shop,I feel so good.Seriously.End up pergi rumah Eve after Isyak eh!hahaha!

11. That's how my January and February like.I might be missing a few events in this entry but I had fun with those I went out with.

that group invitation

2010-02-22T12:01:00.000+08:00

ya know, the group called "Don't walk into someone's life only to leave" is very disturbing.Neither I accept nor ignore.Cos deep down,i believe i did so much to H that I just dont deserve to accept that group invitation.Apparently, I entered his life and I walk off.I have my reasons why.Not that I want to but he make me to.

So again,do I have the right to accept that when I only walk off from someone's life once?

Si Jejaka

2010-02-12T15:39:00.000+08:00

Bila si jejaka sanggup membuat apa sahaja untuk si wanita walaupun dia penat,patutkah dihargai atau patutkah kita rasa marah atau patutkah kita merasa bersalah?

Adakah wajar untuk kita menghargai mereka sedangkan kita tidak memaksa?
Adakah wajar untuk kita merasa marah kerana kedegilan si dia untuk tetap berjumpa walaupun penat?
Adakah wajar untuk kita merasa bersalah sedangkan bukan kita yang menyuruh?

Lelaki,bila bercinta semuanya boleh.Penat macam nak gila pun masih nak berjumpa.Pada aku,kita wanita berhak marah kerana si Dia tidak mempedulikan diri sendiri.Kalau tak pentingkan diri sendiri,macam mana nak pentingkan orang lain.

Bukan ke gitu,Cik Piah? (:

2010-02-05T16:57:00.000+08:00

new layout coming up.

i love love it! :D

laugh

2010-02-03T15:20:00.002+08:00

that really made me laugh so hard!

appreciated.

2010-02-02T09:09:00.001+08:00

It's been 2 days yet I can still feel the excitement of winning first on last sunday.I bet the rest of my girls felt the same way too.However,it is best if you could stop calling me Champion cos I dont have that kind of name.

Thank you.

hectic schedule.

2010-01-27T16:32:00.000+08:00

No matter how busy you are,you will always need someone to by your side

i felt guitly for not making time for my primary school mates.i just couldnt schedule a time just to meet them for the past few months.especially when January 2010 sets in.I was so busy that I began to be disorganized.terpesong jap.and now,I just got to know from Fai that he's going for an operation this friday which I know nuts about it.Not that he's not going to survive but operation sey.a matter of life and death.it was a major operation that he told me like what?yesterday!but he IS my goodfriend.The one who act like my brother,my boyfriend or ttm.he listens though sometimes my stories bore him alot.lately,i have no time for my friends - secondary,primary,poly and others.Holding two jobs aint easy you know.it means you have to sacrifice.Now that I have dikir training,triple my busy-ness.

And I swear I'm just waiting for this sunday to end and I can jolly well tell myself,Welcome Back Kyn!I need to get a life.seriously!

make that six

2010-01-22T15:24:00.000+08:00

4 words.

i am frigging tired nak mampos.

okay,make that 6.

for the past one week,not even once i walked at my own pace.

i had to either walk faster till it looks as if i'm running or i am really running.

ni kalau tak kurus,tak tau nak kata apa.

all in one.

2010-01-19T17:41:00.000+08:00

I'm pretty much busy since the first day of school.Everytime I reached home,I'll hit the bed without changing my clothes.Yes,I'm that shagged.Now, I have dikir and Madanis which 7 days are not enough for me!I dont have my own quality time!

Jadi CCPE jer penat dia setengah mati.Kalau jadi cikgu macam mana agaknya.Now,I'm one of the Club Wellness In-charge.Very funney eh. I had to psycho their mentality to make them eat less especially rice.Cos that's what I've been doing lately.No, I did not advice them on exercise cos tuan punya diri tak pernah exercise.setahun sekali lari kat park.just dont let them know this.

I'm freaking tired right now.I need to handwritten 271 names on 271 letters.boleh gila but I dont mind cos my handwritting very neat.the teachers suggested that i should let the detention students to write instead.but i refused.tulisan sendiri lagik cantik eh dari budak budak tulis.

hari ni jer budak budak clubwellness banyak complain.telinga naik penat dengar.i can't do anything then just tell them to tell the teachers in-charge.ada tu allergic dengan sun la,lari lari lepas tu butang skirt terlepas la.bila tanya asal tak pakai shorts,ada hati boleh jawab shorts tak lawa.pikir dia lawa sangat agaknya.actually,some of them takla gemok sangat.they just need to cut down on their food intake,then dah ok.tapi complain macam dia gemok sangat and have to be in clubwellness throughout her life.

problem lah budak budak gini.today ada training which thank god,kat geylang aje.kalau yishun,memang ku lemau hari ni.sayur pun tak lemau macam aku.today first day so the cramp comes in when it's not supposed to.ku tahan jebat!sakit dia hanya tuhan je tau.Mak kata kalau asal datang cramp tak bagus.that's when those complications kat womb happen.somehow,that scares me alot.tapi thinking alot macam aku,tak kisah sangat.hehe.

the picture above was taken when i was 4 or 5 years old.can't remember.that are my 3 cousins from the 1st Maternal side.Celebrated my brother and my birthday.We were close back then but after She passed away,kita dah tak rapat.We depend on raya to meet one another at Wah's crib but thanks to facebook,we managed to get together like dulu.Laugh and bully one another.The cousin on the right,last time I was taught to call him Abang Puting cos he still with milk bottle till he was 13years old.Very much kena pampered.Until I forgot his real name apa.lol.

Again,thanks to facebook,we are back again.The one in the middle macam jepun hor but actually boyan.i think our side almost all like that.very cina cina gitu.hee hee!

just busy.

2010-01-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

at times it may seem contradicting when i say i'm busy but i had the time to shift my facebook photos to multiply.the fact is,i am really busy.shifting of photos are one of the task that im doing besides doing other work like lesson plan,worksheets and stuffs.up till today,i've yet to even mark the students' worksheets.i really have no time.

now i feel how's the real working life is.damn tiring.holding a two job some more!7 days not enough laaa!

i'm not complaining ah but i just wanna tell you how tiring it is to hold two jobs.but i'm loving it!see la,contradicting again kan?pfft.

i wanna continue with my work.

at times eh,i can't multi task tau.tsk!

the day before and after

2010-01-08T16:10:00.000+08:00

hello sunshine.

i've been pretty busy lately especially yesterday.i've been running here and there like a mad woman.the more i want to walk like a teacher,the more i had to run.things were very chaotic yesterday.time constraint for the CCA Auditions.To make things worst,the room for the drama audition had to be cleared for the CCA Teachers meeting.I hate to run infront of the students but I had to.So not the glamour lor.

After work yesterday, went to the hospital to visit my nenek sedare who is currently in ICU.She was admitted due to asthma and also,jantung masuk air (whatever it calls in English).Hopefully,she'll be released soon.I can't help but to cry when I saw tubes here and there on her especially when the tube is inserted in her mouth.She can't talk.Her hands were tied cos she was frightened and tried to take out the tubes from her body.Everytime she wants to hug the people who came to visit her,she can't.Sedih gila sey.My cousin reminded us not to cry infront of her or else she will feel stress.

I'm close to her.I still remember how funny she is.How much she pampered me with love,food and money everytime she see me.The way she whine that I'm taller than her.Almaklum,nenek ngan adik beradik pompan semue pendek pendek belaka.tu pasal aku pun pendek.hehe.I still remember how cute her reaction was when she was punked by me and my granny.Hopefully,she'll recover soon.Insyaallah.I love you,Wa!

and today,pretty relax.Cleared all my minutes and send it to my RO.I've booked the rooms and I've done with the ordering of food at the canteen for next week meeting!Today's CCA Fair and so far it has been overwhelming!took pictures here and there.i likeee!and i feel so cikgu cikgu when the students salam me.huhu.